when everthing starts falling into place..

life, you amaze me..

i am currently working on a project that will help raise money to stop human trafficking and help feed the hungry. it's going to take a lot of time, but in the end, i think it's gonna be worth it. it's all in God's hands. after listeing to one of Anberlin's new singles, 'we owe this to ourselves', i was challenged to make a difference, so that's what i am going to strive for. it's time to make a difference in Christ's name.

i have learn't that i can't take control of everything. i am NOT in control. no matter how hard i try to be, want to be, or think i am; i have zero control. and i want God to have full control of my life, because i have found that when i try to direct my life, it does not go according to plan.

i have finally gotten a group of friends that i enjoy being around. :) we all have fun, laugh, and raid waffle house about three or so times a week. :) it's great. hahahaha. not to mention i have made other friends that really just are fun to be with, and we all get good laughs, have hair dying parties, and just enjoy each other's company. :) it's so fun.

that's all i got for now. just a little sharing. :)

toodles. :)

pointless post.

'well there's a million other girls who do it just like you, looking as innocent as possible to get to who they want.' <---- this one's for YOU. ha.

that's alllllll i'm gonna say on that matter.

moving on: i am so tired from this past week. we are talking like, hardly any sleep at all. but it was all because i have been hanging so much with my friends. :)

i am kinda re-thinking my whole life right now; like looking back on all i have done. the good, the bad, and the ugly. so much has happened in my life. i have great memories i must say. i have accomplished a lot. personal goals and other things. not to say i haven't had my share of mistakes. God knows, i'm not perfect. that's for sure.

phew.. this is a pointless blog really. i am exhausted. g'night. :)

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ROLLERCOASTER OF LIFE.

whoever said life is a roller coaster.. you were right.

i'm at a point in my life that is swarmed with confusion. one minute everything is great, and the next it seems i've hit rock bottom.

i think i am a target for drama. no matter how much i wish and hope to avoid it, it always pin points me. i hate rumors more than anything. no matter what people say, they can spoil things. and they are HURTFUL. i guess that's just the way it has to be though. :(

i'm a person who tries to make everyone else happy. i am one person, i can't please you all. and i'm sorry. it may seem selfish, but don't i deserve some happiness, too?? just asking.

i just got to trust God. he knows what he is doing, thankfully. cause man, i sure don't sometimes.

i know that like harly ANYONE reads this, so it's a good place to get my thoughts out without getting crap for it. hahaha.

*sigh.

overandout.

learning who i am.

i can't dance or sing to save my life. i don't drink alcohol. i don't do drugs. i don't try to be someone i am not. i'm not perfect. i don't listen to music because you and the rest of the world say it's good.

i am HALEY:

i care about people deeply. i mean it when i say i love you. i can make you laugh. i can fight. i make mistakes. i have a relationship with God. i have feelings, whether you see them or not. i am too hard on myself. i wear my heart on my sleeve.

i'm tired of comparing myself to certain people. i am tired of thinking i am no good compared to those people, when in fact, i am happy with who i am. i'm not what everyone else wants, i am just me. take me or leave me. i can't make people like me, and i'm tired of trying. what i am, i am happy with.

a simple quote.

'the secret is that you have to really really know that the only difference between you and [a street prostitute] is God’s grace.' -Dave Fiquette

really think about this.. how true it is.

'F-A-N-A-T-I-C'

'i'm a f-a-n-a-t-i-c, fanatic. And I rep Christ till i d-i-e, fanatic. i'm not extreme, i'm redeemed with faith, to serve a God who's extremely great. i'm a fanatic.' -Lecrae

there is something inside me eating me alive. i have a passion for people. i have been ignoring it for a while now, not knowing how to answer to it, or feed it. i now know what it is.. God is moving in my heart. BIG TIME. my emotions are running wild. i want to cry, scream, and share Christ with those in need. people are in deep need of help and Christs love, people. we have got to do something.

'i only fear that there's no time left, to tell the world that there's no time left.' -Group 1 Crew

today, as i was downtown, i realized how many people are truely hungry. america, it's time to get off our 'back sides' and DO SOMETHING, including myself. i won't tell how i realized this, because i feel that would be boasting if i shared the two stories that i have. therefore, just know that I DO KNOW that people in our town are hungry and NEED to be witnessed to. what are we doing? we go to church Sunday mornings and wednesday nights.. but what do we do the other five days a week? we have time for baseball games, football games, work, tv, and everything else.. do we have time to witness?? what happened to that? i speak for myself as well. instead of doing NOTHING, we should be doing what we ARE CALLED TO DO. everyone you meet should see the love of Christ in you. we need to step up the plate people. what i saw today is replaying over and over in my head. do you realize how many people don't even get meals some days?? while we shove food down our throats everytime we get the chance. what are we afraid of? stepping on someones toes? hurting someones feelings? making someone mad? pffff.. we need to GETOVERIT. did Jesus care what people thought of him? NO. if we are supposed to follow in Christ's footsteps, then what are we doing? we ALL (including myself) have a lot to do.

another point i have to make: i was on a TV show. and YES, i said a 'bad word'. i am getting criticized for saying that word and for portraying the character that i did on the show. YOU WANT TO KNOW SOMETHING? instead of criticizing me for cursing and and portraying a pot head, let me shed a little light for ya.. 1. i was ACTING. i was playing someone else, a REAL LIFE STORY. i am not a pot head and can be honest and say that i have never EVER did drugs! HONESTLY. 2. and as for the curse word, I WAS ACTING. do you think a pot head teenager is going to be sweet and innocent? NO. you know, i was asked to say f*$@ on the show, but i REFUSED to say it, and a guy in the show DEFENDED me and told the producers i was NOT going to say that word. THANKYOUVERYMUCH. i do have morals people. come on now. 3. i portrayed a pot head, yes. instead of criticizing me for that, maybe you need a reality check and realize there are REAL people like that in the world, and in our OWN town. how freakin sad is that? i have tears just thinking about it. and what are we doing to help those people? nothing. people sit around and talk smack about them, instead of trying to help them. what the heck? who are WE to cast judgement as Christians? don't put yourself ANY higher than ANYONE. you were once lost, and someone helped you and told you about Christs love. YOU GET OUT THERE AND DO THE SAME. you could be someones only hope in hearing about Christ. stop judging. you have NO right to judge. that is God's job, not yours. when you see someone doing something ungodly, instead of judging them, share the Gospel. it's what you ARE SUPPOSED to do.

*just remember, Romans 2:1 therefore, anyone of you who judges is without excuse.for when you judge another, you condemn yourself, since you, the judge, do the same.

i can't begin to explain what i am feeling inside right now. but i am tired of sitting around, wasting my life, NOT helping other people. i have a sincere love for people, and i want to help. people need us as Chrsitans. my heart goes out to those in need. i am sitting here in tears now.. please, help me everyone. get out there and DO SOMETHING. make a difference. READ THE GREAT COMMISION. we are to make disciples of ALL nations, INCLUDING our own. we ALL, and myself, need to do what we are called to do.

i am not perfect. i am a sinner just like everyone else, in need of my Savior. i just feel God moving in my heart and want to challenge everyone, as i am being challenged by God.

'the gospel hit my heart. i guess that's what they call a heartattack.'

'make disciples of all nations, teach em to obey the Lord. hate to never lead someone to Christ before i face the Lord.' -Lecrae

it has been forever, basicaly.

i haven't blogged in a loooooong while.
since the last time i wrote, i have been on a mission trip to new orleans..

i want to move there.

seriously. i fell in love with that place. the different cultures, the people, the sites.. i encountered cultures that i have not ever experienced. those poeple NEED more missionaries there. [i totally agree that other countries need missionaries, but we need to be missionaries to people IN OUR OWN COUNTRY, too.] but, back to my point.. they need open minded people who will just LISTEN to them. yes, we should share the gospel with them, but we need to listen to them as well. we do not have to agree with them, but listen. THEN explain.

*time out*
why don't we as Christians be more open minded? who did Christ hang out with? yes, he surrounded himself with 12 disciples.. but who did he preach to? not the saved. he preached to the lost. LISTEN people.. take the time to listen to people around you. understand where they are coming from, then, if what they believe is NOT what the bible says, tell them about Christ and His love and what he did for you, me, and them, and why what the believe is wrong. don't shove things down their throat. judging people and shoving religion down their throat DOES NOT get them anywhere. so as i said, if someone is not living the life they should be, listen to their side as well, then explain why they are wrong and what God says about things. we as Christians need to STEPITUP! <---- i include myself. WE need to fix this everyone, before it's too late.

*time in*
i went into a voo doo shop while in new orleans, to see what it was like. a lot of people didn't like the idea that i did that. little do some know, i had a talk with the guy working in their about religions and about Christ. i believe he still thought he was right, but i planted just a tee tiny seed, that hopefully will one day blossom. PRAY people. don't look down upon.. PRAY.

anyways, in all this.. i know i want to share Christ's love with people. i enjoy doing it and want to continue. and i can do it every day, every where i go. i don't have to wait until i am placed somewhere to share Christ's love. i can do it at work and everywhere i go.


i am at a very confused stage in my life. between my health, work, and just other things.. i feel so confused. i need to spend more time in God's word. i know he will help me through it, it's just hard.
:( i just need prayer, for i feel i'm at a stopping point, and don't know what to do. i know God has a masterful plan ready for me.. i just need a little push in where to go now..

that's all i have to say for now. i actually could spill TONS more, but for now i am going to leave it at this.

just LISTEN people. you can learn so much that way.

'make disciples of the nations. teach em to obey the Lord. hate to never lead someone to Christ before i face the Lord.' -Lecrae