life is just going really good for me.
i mean, yes, i am a little confused on where God wants me, what i am doing, and other things that just.. well, confuse me. but i am enjoying myself for the first time in while. i let myself get so down.. and finally, when i relyed more on my God, things turned around. (of course.) He will show me the way, no doubt.
this coming spring has a lot in store for me, to spread the Word in other parts of the world. :) i am so excited!
i feel lately, just.. i am content, yet i'm not, with life. content in that, my God is so working in my life and in my heart and loves me no matter how many times i have failed Him, my family being so supportive and loving, and i'm just enjoying the small things in life. :) but i'm not content in where i'm going (where does God want to use me?), how else can i help? am i showing the love of Christ to everyone i meet? how can i be more Christ like? why is the school system being so difficult? why can't i find a job? why do i let the good things slip out of my life and why do i hold back until it's too late? <---- these things puzzle me. and i do trust God, but i guess my impatience is being tested.
also something in my life.. i just (as i have written about before) have a passion for people that drives my very being. it eats at me. i get teary eyed just thinking about it. i want to help, but sometimes i feel trapped in: how can i help? i am working on that.. i want to do more, i reeeeally do. people NEED to see the love of Christ in me. all the time, every waking second.
prayers would be appreciated for guidance in my life. :) i know God is doing great things, and i need to learn to be patient with His timing.
His love is NEVER failing.
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